Even in my doubt.. I press on..

Ali Random Thoughts:
Just because someone is blissful and highly freespirited most of the time doesn't mean they are not often greeted with rejection ie. NOs and quite often many rarely think those spirited souls get sad, heavy hearted, hurt or cry....

On the contrary we do....we typically care about everyone and everything which makes it even tougher...
I will concur that quite often I hear No, Not today, ehhhh, I can't, flat out NO Ali!  or a myriad of rejections..( trust me.. My strike 3's get counted often and quickly)..but I try not to get discouraged...and not dwell on negative things much... They are lessons and I can learn from them as I choose. As we all can.

When one door is closed or slightly open with a door stop holding it firmly....I run down the hall trying to open others as if Jason is chasing me...(without falling over that leaf....of course).

**Then when I find one that is open..I run in and slam the door behind me and sit quietly without breathing (to make sure Jason doesn't find me... Sorry couldn't help it)
Anyway, rejection is rejection.. it hurts, but you cant stay there long..life is a struggle where ever we allow the struggle to lay...going to the next option when you've tried your best doesn't denote failure it shows strength and perseverance....

Even in my doubt.. I press on..
I dance a little (OK a lot-even to no music)
Cry a little..
Appreciate those who encourage me.....
And dance some more...

Anyway have a Super day!
Be Blessed

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Winning doesnt always mean crossing the line first...

Ali Random Thoughts:
I noticed I have had to wait a day to respond to some texts and emails lately... (personal & work)
My initial response has been a bit of agitation on a few things and that is not like me...
I know I am a bit off balance personally and professionally...as of late.
I responded to a few things today with absolutely no angst... Same msgs as before..only change was in me...

*sometimes I have to take a moment when I notice my tone, my energy, my agitation level....My Balance is off and get back on track...
*I used to be quick to belt out anything that I wanted with little regard as long as I felt I was being true to myself....
And some friends would laugh and think that was .... Ali being Ali....

But is that the Ali I wanted to be???

Was I Actually getting what I wanted??
Hmmm... I learned (for me) this was not displaying my true strength nor helping me develop my passion/purpose so I started paying more attention and being more conscious say about 7ish yrs ago... 

At first I was reflecting on everything I did and said... What my thought process was.. Why did I feel this way.
Why was my initial response what it was?
What inside me was triggering this response?
Was I OK with it? Or not?

My goal was to get to a point where I did not have to think about my reaction or wonder later what I said or how I said it... I wanted to live more and reflect less... But it took time to deal with inner things that triggered those reactions in me.

I can say now I more easily process things not to dismiss them, but they truly just roll off my back without me categorizing and rationalizing etc...
It has taken a long time and I still have some things that I clearly have not completely dealt with because the presence of the scenario continues to pop up in my life.
But in this process I have come to a place where I believe PAUSE is beneficial and a quick response is not always the best....
Winning doesn't always mean crossing the line first...

Ali Thoughts
A2C (Ali's 2¢)